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So according to a few of the guys (who are actually better at keeping up with their blog than myself) blogging and emotions go hand-in-hand. So before I have you running the opposite way with your arms waving in the air, my blog is going to be minimal girl emotions as possible. I just need to talk just this once :). I'm probably typing for my own health anyway..so might as well get a few things out, yes?
So here we go...

The Past;
I seem to dwell on things that have already taken course. Not that I'm some psycho that holds everybody accountible for what they've done or said..I just like to remember things. But lately I can't seem to remember anything. Too much time is going by and things are beginning to blur. Which means it's time for something new and exciting..

Which brings me to the Present;
I don't go to school, I don't work and I don't have friends.
I don't go to school because I took the year off to travel. I took the year off to get a better understanding of myself and my thoughts. In some cliché way I was "finding myself."
I don't work because I only do seasonal jobs..so I can travel!! I have a job every summer and every winter. I'm not a bum :(
And I don't have any friends because I don't go to school and I don't work.
So I have a pretty basic understanding on why things in "the present" suck.

The Future;
I would just like to say that I am probably going to die alone. And in some sick way I've learning to live with that. So since that is out of the way, it makes my next few decisions a bit difficult.
I have to choose a major, a college, and a location that leads me onto the path of the rest of my life. Since I'm doomed to a people repellent life it scares me to have to make a decision that determines my happiness forever. One wrong move and I could be calling numbers out at a pharmacy for the next 60 years.

Ugh I feel like I'm hard to understand and I'm not quite sure if any of that was comprehendable. But who actually reads my junk anyway?
I'm telling you I repel people and hey! that's okay, I can live with that.
But I would just like to add, that I do feel better for getting that out in the open :) thank you blog.